Spring Spiritual Cleaning- The Eulogy


I probably won’t be adding may pictures or “fluff stuff” to this post because in all reality, it is about my Spiritual growth and journey for the month of April. If you can believe it, I haven’t gone to the gym more than 2 or 3 times this month because I have been putting more into the growth within than the external growth with weights. Now, that being said, I still have been doing my deep breathing exercises, yoga at home, nature walks, and meditation.

I have been learning a lot about myself. I was advised one of the best things that we can do is to write our our eulogy. In doing so, we can almost see the legacy that we will leave behind. Initially I had no idea where to start with writing my own eulogy. It was with the help of a blog I found Art of Manliness, yeah, this is obviously a blog directed at men but, what the hey! I didn’t see any, “No Girls Allowed!” signs hung anywhere and if it helps me get to the next spiritual stone I’m trying to get to, so be it!

Writing the Eulogy really did get me thinking about those things we sometimes think about, sometimes we forget about. I began to think about the people who came into and influenced me in my life. The lessons I learned. The dreams I had, ones I achieved and ones I grew out of when I realized I didn’t want them anymore.  

It’s a great exercise to do. It will help you to reevaluate the life you have lived thus far, and maybe help guide you in what you would like to accomplish, or what relationships you’d like to repair since you have the opportunity right now. For some this exercise will be easier than for others. For me, I found some parts were very difficult. Regardless, I’m glad I did it.


Spring Cleaning your “Top Three” for Psychological, Physiological, and Spiritual Health

The next four weeks can be magical for you, if you allow them to be! Take your own journey or follow me in mine, phenomenal things are about to happen! (I believe they will, therefore, they will!)

The beginning of April marks the first part of the second quarter of the year. It is a time when some people do their Spring cleaning, not just of their house, but of their mind, body, and spirit as well. For the next four weeks I will allow myself to experience a cleaning of self and will end in a renown re-discovery of who I really am. 

I decided to do this when I found myself feeling a pull from within a few months ago. I won’t go into details but I just knew it was time for me to reconnect and ground myself. Confused yet? Well, imagine this.. “Can you imagine waking up today without your past history of doubt, fear and the perceptions that limit you or keep you stuck in repetitive patterns? Can you imagine being able to design a deep and meaningful future based on your soul’s greatest expression and your heart’s deepest desires rather than on old, outdated, unmet needs and beliefs?” Now do you see where I am headed? Obviously, this is only reflecting in the realm of my spiritual self but I am expecting more to come!

“Your life will be transformed when you make peace with your shadow. The caterpillar will become a breathtakingly beautiful butterfly. You will no longer have to pretend to be someone you’re not. You will no longer have to prove you’re good enough. When you embrace your shadow you will no longer have to life in fear. Find the gifts of your shadow and you will finally revel in all the glory of your true self. Then you will have the freedom to create the life you have always desired.” – Debbie Ford

 Debbie Ford has written several books, the one I will be using is: 

COURAGE for my Kindle. 


“Most of us think about courage as something we do, something we think, or a decision we make. But a warrior’s courage is a gift that we receive at birth. It is a level of consciousness that, whether we have experienced it or not, must be held close, developed, and savored. It is a state of being. When you are standing in and being courageous, you don’t have to ‘do‘ courage. When you are doing courage, you tend to muscle through a situation or decision, which you have probably done before. This muscling through is not the kind of courage that transcends the moment, because it is more often than not sourced from fear, from ‘I have to’ or ‘I should.’ Instead, a warrior’s courage is poignant, purposeful, and directed toward where change needs to be made. And, as you will see throughout this book, when you experience a warrior’s courage, being and standing in the presence of it, you are clear that the rewards for letting it lead you are infinitely greater than the risks. You were born with this courageous warrior inside of you. In your imagination, you see her as sacred and holy, beautiful and empowered. She is filled with strength, clarity, and confidence, born ready to participate in the world, to face and conquer her fears, and to reunite with all the other powerful, playful warriors out there.”


Yes, I will also be cleaning other aspects of my life. I already started with what I call, “The Cleanse of the Fakey Facebook Friends”. You know what I’m talking about. I was one of “those people” who had over 2000 “friends” on facebook. Granted, most I had met at competitions, conventions, seminars, and the like. Others were “friends” of theirs who just liked what I posted, i guess. Either way, I went through and unfriended about 1300 people total. When no one tried to re-friend me, I actually felt good because initially I thought perhaps some people who get way too emotionally tied to their social media friends or followers would be upset or something. If that happened, they never let me know. Slightly off topic but can you believe they actually have a Facebook Poster? “Show your house guests, family, or roommate how popular you are on Facebook with a poster showing all your Facebook friends! Have up to 2000 friends printed on a 20″x40″ poster for just $20. Think that will impress Mom and Dad?” Wow.

Yeah, chopping that tree down was far over due. I also decided for the month of April, I will stay off Facebook and my email. My only communication will be through my phone ( gotta really know me to have that #) and through my Twitter account for brief interactions.

You may be wondering where fitness and health fit in here. Healthy nutrition is the best way to give your body the balanced nutrients it needs to work and function properly. We touched base on this before.Obviously cardiovascular exercise in the amount of 20-30 minutes a day and strength training.. I will also add in my meditation and Yoga (I’m getting better!), and I am still working on my Reiki as well.


Spring Cleaning the top three; Mind, Body, and Spirit (psychological, physiological, and spiritual) takes a cognitive effort, daily focus, and a willingness to grow, learn,and let go of all that is “cluttering” up your life…inside and out.

So there you have it. This is the plan for the month of April. I welcome you to walk with me, and who knows, maybe transform your OWN life.  Thank you for reading, as always, your comments are welcome! 

Please share this with those whom you feel may benefit from the information.




8 Easy Ways To Stay Focused On Healthy Lifestyle Changes

Recently I was speaking with someone who seemed to have lost their motivation for going to the gym, eating healthier, and improving their overall fitness. They stopped their food journal, went to the gym MAYBE two times a week if they didn’t get it in their head to not go when they left the parking lot of their employer, if they did that, they kept their appointment time one time that week. In short, they lost their WIT(Whatever It Takes)!



That’s right, they sank down the hole and lost their connectivity to why they began their journey in the first place. So, let’s say you are one of those people. This was the #1 reason people flop on their journey. Not lack of trainers and coaches, not lack of gym choices or places to workout or buy healthy foods, not lack of hope, or not enough knowledge according to the American Psychological and their survey called Stress in America. It was lack of willpower. Oh, I know you aren’t but let’s pretend for a moment that you are. How would you get it back? How would you motivate yourself to get back in to the swing of things and get your your WIT’s back?

1. Whatever It Takes: It may sound corney but the first thing to do is to get your mindset right. Where ever your mind goes, your body follows. So, before you even start to think about excuses, this is when you tell yourself “WHAT EVER IT TAKES!” You say this over and over. Get your physiology into it, use your arms, your legs, your torso and say it like you mean it, because you DO mean it, don’t you? Of course your do!

2: Review your goals- Are you setting SMART goals? Oh PLEASE tell me you are at least setting your goals! How can you get somewhere if you don’t know where you are going? I’m always surprised when I’m in a consultation with someone and I ask them what their goals are and they respond with very vague, “I wanna lose weight.” type of goals. No. That won’t work! You need to set SMART goals! Write them down, look at them every day.


3: Try a Vision Board- A Vision board will tune your brain into where you want to go. More and more people seem to understand the impact visioning can have on not just health and fitness successes but in many areas of your life. I prefer a board you have in your home that you look at each day, but Pinterest has certainly helped with allowing people to create and access boards where ever they are. No Excuses!

4: Stress Relief – There is no doubt whatsoever that stress can be a major energy zapper! Think about what your body feels like when it is stressed. All the muscles are tightened, and usually stress is something that most people allow to affect their bodies for a long period of time, not just a few minutes. There are many ways to relieve stress, from quiet walks in nature, to meditation and yoga. Even aromatherapy and massage. Learning stress coping techniques such as deep breathing will also help alleviate stress. 

5: Plan ahead – Oh it sounds so simple doesn’t it? let me tell you what, it sure helps with you already have that intention in your mind that you are doing what you set out to do! If it’s a workout, lay your clothes out in advance. If it’s dietary, advanced food prep ( and take it with you) is the best way to stay on track and avoid getting things on the run when you are hungry or want munchies. 

6: Make it a ritual or appointment with yourself. If your goal is to go running every morning, work it in to your morning routine or ritual. If it’s after work ( when people tend to be more tired) DO NOT GO HOME AND SIT ON THE COUCH OF DOOM!! Take your workout clothes with you and either change at the gym or, in the restroom of your employer and go straight to your running start point, or gym. We all know that if you’ve worked a long hard day and you come home and sit on the couch, it’s like your butt get’s super glued to it. Don’t do it!

7. Share your goals – Find an accountability partner or let others know what your (SMART) goals are. Ask them for help..only if you REALLY want it though. Some people will ride you like a horse if you tell them your goal is to go to the gym 5 days a week and you miss a day because you are sick (really sick).


8. Track your progress – One way I have found to work is by using a journal to write in each night that I did was I was supposed to do. I label how many days in a row and how I felt before and after my workout or ate my foods. I write the time of day, the date and the day. For food this is a great way to recognize how your body reacts to certain foods during the day. Some people use a calender and put a big red X on the day they do what they should have done. The visual part of that is that you don’t want to break the success chain of big red X’s. 


The Non-Fragile Art of Not Giving A Fuck!

Originally posted on The Progressive Self:

 February 10, 2014 by Jason Demakis

…About the wrong things, of course! How many times have you allowed yourself to remain stagnant because of fear of other people’s opinions in regards to your path? Here’s an article telling you why you not only need to stop doing this, but also why no longer doing so empowers you into domains of personal growth and progress beyond the bounds of everyone else who’s still too terrified of what other people are thinking! The “secret” to unconditional happiness and gratitude actually begins with not giving a fuck!

People Are Judging You RIGHT NOW! What Are You Going to Do?!

“We’re often afraid to tell others exactly how we feel, because we are afraid of what others will have to say about how we feel.” -Abraham Hicks

Let’s set something straight from the get go: the majority of people who have higher goals and…

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Women should lift weights, but do they REALLY need to lift heavy?


I just got through reading an article directed toward women saying that they need to lift heavy weights several times a week and to, “Put the 5-pound dumbbells away, just put them back in the corner where you found them. Light them on fire while you’re at it.”  It also mentioned the picture in the fitness magazine of the woman standing on one leg on the bosu while lifting a 5lb db is not the workout they (women) need. I’m sorry, but if you ask me, women, or anyone for that matter need several different types of workouts from weights, to cardio, to yoga and pilates. I congratulate the women who take the time to find a workout they love and work it into their busy schedules to do 3-5 times a week!

It even went on to say, “ANYTHING you read in any women’s fitness magazine is suspect. Actually, it’s not just suspect — you can be guaranteed that they’re feeding you inaccurate trash.” Wow. That’s a pretty bold statement. I’d tell the lady who wrote that article to check out Oxygen Magazine. It’s what got me started toward my first Women’s Physique Competition! Certainly NOT inaccurate trash!



I’m the third from the right in the lavender suit. This photo was taken at the OCB Midwest States Bodybuilding Competition in November 2006 at the Egyptian Theater in DeKalb, Illinois.

So, let’s back up a bit and think about where this person is coming from and what exactly the message they are trying to relay is. Obviously I have no idea who this lady is that wrote this article or what her credentials are, but I think she was a little off base generalizing that every woman who wants to workout should,”put several 45-pound plates on a 45-pound barbell and deadlifting and squatting “. I agree that women should lift weights IF they are cleared to do so by their doctor. There are conditions of which lifting HEAVY weights as the person in the article advised every woman should do, is contradictory to what is truly beneficial to a persons health.

Instead of reading the article I read, I would recommend my clients read something more like this:

8 REASONS WOMEN SHOULD LIFT Or this Why Women Don’t (But Should) Lift Weights

I really liked #7 in the 8 reasons article, “As you age, you are at risk of losing both bone and muscle mass. Postmenopausal women are at a greater risk for osteoporosis because the body no longer secretes estrogen. Resistance training is an excellent way to combat loss of bone mass, and it decreases the risk of osteoporosis.”. Notice it said “RESISTANCE TRAINING”, not “LIFT HEAVY”. By the way, you can also do your own isometric resistance training if you don’t have access to weights or is you are rehabilitating an injury. 



Iris Kyle MS Olympia  (multiple times over)

Lifting weights does have many benefits as we know, and by now most women are aware that they will NEVER look like Iris Kyle, the Ms Olympia (unnatural Ms.Olympia that you see on TV as opposed to the Natural Ms. Olympia Jodi Miller) by lifting some weights. Besides toning, tightening, and shaping the muscles into looking gorgeous body parts we all find attractive, they offer many benefits that are happening INSIDE the body that we can’t see!


Jodi Miller, PNBA Natural Ms. Olympia 2012

Of course, if you are a woman looking to compete in Bodybuilding or power lifting competitions, obviously YES! You will have to lift heavy! That muscle doesn’t just multiply like bunnies mating! The people you see on stage take their sport very seriously and they work at it every single day. It takes hard work and dedication along with eating the right things, getting enough sleep, and more. That is INTENTIONAL muscle gains. They don’t lift what is heavy to them every single day though. High rep/lower weights and low rep/higher weigh days are worked into their workout routine along with how may sets and how many exercises for each body part.

***As always, before you start ANY fitness plan or program we always recommend getting a physical evaluation by your doctor and let him in on what your goals are. 


Medicine is not health care, food is health care. Medicine is Sick Care. It’s time we see it for what it is.

                                                                  Let food be thy medicine- Hippocrates


I noticed it a while back, how the foods I consumed effected my health. When I ate certain things I felt sluggish, tired, had no energy. Sometimes the foods I ate, I swear would cause my my MS/ Hashimoto’s symptoms to act up and I would take notice of how after I ate things I know I shouldn’t have eaten, I would get migraines or aches and pains. It’s one of the reasons I really started looking into the bigger health benefits of eating properly.

This is video of Dr. Terry Wahls and how she reversed her MS through nutrition.

I began taking control over my symptoms through the management of foods. I once belonged to several groups on FaceBook that were either MS groups or Hashimoto’s Groups because I thought it would be great to know and support others who were dealing with the same issues I was. I got out of most of the groups and have only stayed with the ones that supported a healthy diet as one of the means of handing the symptoms. There were actually some groups where some of the people boasted about how obese they were yet would carry on about what very unhealthy food choices they were making. There were other groups it seemed as a means for people to complain and get attention. positivity wasn’t popular and very few seemed to appreciate it. Members would compare their symptoms and side effects from the meds they were taking. Some of those in the group when i would ask about their diet, I felt as though I would get one or two who would support my question but many many more who would I felt would attack the fact that I would even go in that  direction. That food could be at least part of the problem. For someone who is into health, fitness, and wellness, I was certainly in the wrong place. Often times I would wonder, if a medication was causing someone to experience worse symptoms, why would they not only continue with that medication, but pile another one on top of it. Then I got educated about Big Pharma… 

There’s no money is healthy people, and there’s no money in dead people. The money is in the people who are chronically ill. That is why some companies stopped the research and development of antibiotics and instead focus on heart disease, high blood  pressure, and diabetes medication. They focus on the day after day, long term money makers. Not the 7-10 day short term, every so often non money makers. This is why we are running out of antibiotics. That, is a whole separate blog though.

Have you ever heard someone say, ” this pill is for my diabetes, this pill is for my cholesterol, this one is for my high blood pressure, and this one is my steroid for my auto immune disease”? Maybe you haven’t heard it JUST like that, but believe me, there are people out there saying something very close to that same statement. What I found shocking is that some people are so  stuck in their ways, they’d rather take these pills every day, sometimes a couple times a day for the rest of their lives than to make changes in their diet and exercise routines that could not only stop the progression of these diseases, or even potentially start to reverse them! They’d rather take these pills that they pay who knows how much for, for for the rest of their lives than to make the changes they could make which would help them to FEEL better, have a better quality of life, and enable them to do more than they have in a very long time.

The thought of that dumbfounded me, I just couldn’t understand that. Could it be that people are really willing to put chemicals in their bodies, for the rest of their lives which could actually lead to a shorter life, a more painful or less enjoyable life, because they simply do not have the motivation they need to make a lifestyle change that they KNOW would be better for them? And the answer is, yes. Why?

I think that is also a good question. For some I think it could be because it is just easier to take the pill and not think about the long term effects. For others, they are confused. They have no idea where to begin with lifestyle changes. The only nutritional information they have stems from the food pyramid or the “my pyramid” that they are taught while in Middle School Health class. They don’t understand the benefits of taking control of their health and learning how their bodies work and how to properly supply them with the right foods and nutrients.

Why don’t people make the changes they should that are better for them? The the reason is…. Watch and listen as Douglas Lisle explains the Dietary Pleasure Trap:

They want pleasure with the least pain and the least effort. Two of the websites mention in the above video was PCRM and one of my personal favorites (as a former Firefighter ;) ) Engine 2. Both have ways of making your today’s better and your tomorrows more secure.

Even with diseases that we KNOW can be controlled with simple changes in diet, like shopping on the outside isles of the stores. In the places where the produce is sold, people still walk in the supermarket doors and instead of turning to the right, right where the produce is at, the go to the center isles where the boxed, processed “food like” items that contain very little, sometimes no real food what-so-ever or to the frozen fake foods because they want food and the want it now.. or worse, they stop off at the local FAT food store and get the Super Size combo fried meal even when they KNOW it’s a bad choice!


I challenge you to stick with a healthy eating plan for 30 days. No fast foods, no processed foods. Eat plenty of vegetables and fruits, lean protein meats if you aren’t vegetarian…for a month. It’s an adventure in healthy eating and living!




A “Manic Depressive”, “Bipolar Disorder” chick, who dares to say, “Guess what, you’re not Crazy! ”

Let’s first look at how they define Manic Depressive or Bipolar Disorder:

Bipolar disorder, also known as bipolar affective disorder, manic-depressive disorder, or manic depression, is a mental illness classified by psychiatry as a mood disorder. Individuals with bipolar disorder experience episodes of an elevated or agitated mood known as mania alternating with episodes of depression.


Hmmm, maybe Mr. Adam Ant has something here…

What Causes Bipolar Disorder?

“The cause of Bipolar disorder is not yet fully understood. The neurotransmitters that regulate mood, such as serotonin, seem to be out of balance and brain functioning differs in individuals with the disorder. Studies have shown that this phenomenon runs in families, which suggests a strong genetic component.

More than two-thirds of individuals with Bipolar disorder have at least one relative who have suffered either from the same condition or major depression. Other theories suggest that manic states could be triggered by drug abuse, sleep deprivation and stressful life events.” 

Ok, so there. That is how they put down in very generic words the label or title they place on a person who has very dramatic feelings or mood swings. I remember when we were sitting at the psychiatrist for my daughter (who they said she had ADHD and ODD and we found out diet and her off the chart IQ played a HUGE part in her behavior) and he asked if any family members had been diagnosed with a mental disorder. My husband didn’t didn’t mean to hurt my feelings but within seconds he did something that I felt was like a slap in the face when he answered, “Well she is Bipolar.” What the heck is that?! I felt betrayed by the man I love the most and defended myself abruptly. “They say I’m Manic Depressive NOT Bipolar.” Geez. The nerve!

Obviously I was unaware they were the same damn thing! I just took offense to the label “Bipolar” because of what I had been told or preseumed about it. It used to mean to me that if you were diagnosed as being Bipolar, you were automatically in danger of suicide, dangerous thoughts of suicide, or thoughts of harming others and just weren’t a safe person to be around. Obviously, that isn’t always the case.

So, about these antidepressants they are pushing out at incredible amounts:

Every year, more than 253 million prescriptions for antidepressants are filled in the United States, making them the second most prescribed drug class in the United States (second only to cholesterol-lowering drugs). This includes use among children, where in the U.S. kids are getting three times more prescriptions for antidepressants and stimulants, and up to double the amount of antipsychotic drugs than kids from Germany and the Netherlands.

At the time I thought Bipolar meant mental hospital stays. Someone who Bipolar needs to be put on whacky meds which cause other bad side effects which caused you to get put on OTHER meds to counter act until you have a list of meds the length of a shopping list! Next thing you know you’re in the hospital or dead because your damn anti depressants caused some other major medical emergency! Oh please, give me one of those great little “happiness in a pill” pills! No thanks! Okay, before I get a bunch of hateful comments, please let me express here that going the “no prescription meds” route is MY OWN CHOICE based on various personal experiences, diagnosis, and beliefs. This was also chosen upon the careful research and investigation of the meds in which the mental health professionals available by Big Pharma today. You need to make YOUR OWN CHOICES after talking it over with your own mental health professional, your family, and doing your own investigational research. *I am not a psychological medical professional, I am just in charge of my own health, just as you are. Frequent check in’s and analysis are encouraged should you decide to work through your own disorder by the use of natural means. Consult a doctor, homeopath or naturopath for advice, especially when other chronic medications are also in use.

There are four basic types of bipolar disorder:

  1. Bipolar I Disorder is mainly defined by manic or mixed episodes that last at least seven days, or by manic symptoms that are so severe that the person needs immediate hospital care. Usually, the person also has depressive episodes, typically lasting at least two weeks. The symptoms of mania or depression must be a major change from the person’s normal behavior.
  2. Bipolar II Disorder is defined by a pattern of depressive episodes shifting back and forth with hypomanic episodes, but no full-blown manic or mixed episodes.
  3. Bipolar Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (BP-NOS) is diagnosed when a person has symptoms of the illness that do not meet diagnostic criteria for either bipolar I or II. The symptoms may not last long enough, or the person may have too few symptoms, to be diagnosed with bipolar I or II. However, the symptoms are clearly out of the person’s normal range of behavior.
  4. Cyclothymic Disorder, or Cyclothymia, is a mild form of bipolar disorder. People who have cyclothymia have episodes of hypomania that shift back and forth with mild depression for at least two years. However, the symptoms do not meet the diagnostic requirements for any other type of bipolar disorder.


I thought it was very interesting to see who else out there, common household names of famous people, had also been diagnosed with Manic Depression or Bipolar Disorder (list obtained from World Psychiatry . Check this our:

Actors & Actresses

Ned Beatty, Maurice Bernard, Jeremy Brett, Jim Carey, Rosemary Clooney, Robert Downey Jr., Patty Duke, Carrie Fisher, Connie Francis, singer and actress Shecky Greene, Margot Kidder, Vivien Leigh, Kevin McDonald, comedian Kristy McNichols, Burgess Meredith, Ben Stiller, David Strickland, Lili Taylor, Tracy Ullman, Jean-Claude Van Damme, Robin Williams, Jonathon Winters

Artists with Bipolar Disorder

Alvin Alley, Ludwig Von Beethoven, Francis Ford Coppola, George Fredrick Handel, Bill Lichtenstein, Joshua Logan, Vincent Van Gogh, Gustav Mahier, Francesco Scavullo, Robert Schumann, Don Simpson, Norman Wexler

Entrepreneurs with Bipolar Disorder

Ted Turner, media giant

Financiers with Bipolar Disorder

John Mulheren, Murray Pezim

Miscellaneous with Bipolar Disorder

Buzz Aldrin (astronaut), Clifford Beers (humanitarian), Garnet Coleman (legislator Texas), Larry Flynt, publisher, Kit Gingrich (Newt’s mom), Phil Graham (owner of Washington Post), Peter Gregg, Susan Panico (Susan Dime-Meenan), business executive Sol Wachtier, former New York State Chief Judge

Musicians with Bipolar Disorder

Ludwig van Beethoven (composer), Alohe Jean Burke (musician), vocalist Rosemary Clooney, Peter Gabriel, Jimi Hendrix, Kristen Hersh, Phyllis Hyman, Jack Irons, Daniel Johnston, Otto Klemperer, Oscar Levant, Phil Ochs, John Ogden, Phil Spector, Sting, Gordon Sumner, Tom Waits, Brian Wilson, Townes Van Zandt.

Poets with Bipolar Disorder

John Berryman, C.E. Chaffin, Jane Kenyon, Robert Lowell, Sylvia Plath, Robert Schumann, Delmore Schwartz

Political with Bipolar Disorder

Winston Churchill, Robert Boorstin, special assistant to President Clinton, L. Brent Bozell, political scientist, attorney, writer Bob Bullock, ex secretary of state, state comptroller and lieutenant governer, Kitty Dukasis, Thomas Eagleton, Lynne Rivers, Theodore Roosevelt, President of the United States

Scholars with Bipolar Disorder

John Strugnell, biblical scholar

Scientists with Bipolar Disorder

Karl Paul Link, chemist Dimitri Mihalas

Sports with Bipolar Disorder

Shelley Beattie, John Daly, Muffin Spencer-Devlin, Ilie Nastase, Jimmy Piersail, Barret Robbins, Wyatt Sexton, Alonzo Spellman, Darryl Strawberry, Dimitrius Underwood, Luther Wright, Bert Yancey.

TV & Radio with Bipolar Disorder

Dick Cavett, Jay Marvin, Jane Pauley

Writers with Bipolar Disorder

Mark Twain, Edgar Allan Poe, Louis Althusser, Art Buchwald, Neal Cassady, Abbie Hoffman, Kay Redfield Jamison, (writer, psychologist), Peter Nolan, Lawrence Frances Lear, Rika Lesser, Kate Millet, Robert Munsch, Margo Orum, Simmie, August Strindberg, Joseph Vasquez, Mark Vonnegut, Sol Wachtler, Mary Jane Ward, Virginia Woolf

If you have been diagnosed as being “Bipolar”, as you can see, you are far, far , from being alone! I also want to share something with you..if there are times when you are feeling low, and there will be times because we are all HUMAN and we have FEELINGS, remember this…
“Beautiful people do not just happen.” Isn’t that the truth. Beautiful people are created through their experiences and their understanding and ability to feel extreme highs and lows and break the barriers that try to hold them down. Of course, that is simply my opinion but it is one that has gotten me through some pretty tough times, let me tell you what.
What works for me
Notice, that is “what works for me” not what will work for you. I don’t know what will work for you, but I can offer some things that might help if you use them and make them a part of your daily rituals, as I have.
Wake up with Gratitude- Each morning when I wake I think of the things that I am grateful for for. I allow myself to bring that energy of gratitude deep within. I close my eyes and picture the gratitude being pulled directly into my heart for every single thing I can think of off the top of my head to be grateful for.
Talk to yourself with love- When was the last time you looked at yourself in the mirror and told yourself just how freaking AWESOME you are?! (No negatives allowed in this one.) Tell yourself all those things you need to hear about you. Maybe things others have said to you or what you believe should be said to you. SAY THEM! You deserve self love!
Exercise- C’mon now, you knew this was coming! There are so many studies out there that prove how benficial exercise is for your emotional, mental, and physical health and wellness that it quite simply can not be denied! One article in Health Magazine says, “Moderate physical activity for 30 minutes a day can help control mood swings.” 

When you exercise, your body releases chemicals called endorphins. These endorphins interact with the receptors in your brain that reduce your perception of pain they also trigger a positive feeling in the body (YAY!!), similar to that of morphine. For example, the feeling that follows a run or workout is often described as “euphoric.” That feeling, known as a “runner’s high,” can be accompanied by a positive and energizing outlook on life.(another YAY!!)

Endorphins act as analgesics, which mean they diminish the perception of pain and also act as sedatives. They are manufactured in your brain, spinal cord, and many other parts of your body and are released in response to brain chemicals called neurotransmitters. The neuron receptors endorphins bind to are the same ones that bind some pain medicines. However, unlike with morphine, the activation of these receptors by the body’s endorphins does not lead to addiction or dependence.(and that leads to my 3rd and final YAY!! for exercise in this section ;) )

Eat Healthy – Chances are you saw this one coming too. I’m always surprised at how many people I talk to who really have no idea how vital the foods we put in our bodies affect our moods (among other areas). Published in the Public Health Nutritionjournal, the results reveal that consumers of fast food, compared to those who eat little or none, are 51% more likely to develop depression. Did you hear what I said there? FIFTY ONE PERCENT more likely to develop depression!

“Even eating small quantities is linked to a significantly higher chance of developing depression,” 

Put the FAT (yes.. fat) FOOD DOWN!!! Previous studies suggest that certain nutrients have a preventative role. These include group B vitamins, omega-3 fatty acids and olive oil. A healthy diet such as that enjoyed in the Mediterranean has been linked to a lower risk of developing depression.

Journaling- There are a lot of reasons I recommend journaling, not just to record daily events and activities, but to note moods of the day, foods that are eaten that day, exercise that was done ( or not done), how much and the quality of sleep obtained the night before. All these journal entries will give you a look into the very real you and the cause and effects of the what you eat and how you take care of yourself and the results you get AND relieve stress! You will REALLY get to know you and your body. 

Scientific evidence supports that journaling provides other unexpected benefits. The act of writing accesses your left brain, which is analytical and rational. While your left brain is occupied, your right brain is free to create, intuit and feel. In sum, writing removes mental blocks and allows you to use all of your brainpower to better understand yourself, others and the world around you.

While as a MD, Bipolar person, may sometimes feel out of control with their emotions, as a supporter of someone who goes on these emotional roller coaster rides often, it can also be very hard to deal with. Just try to remember, they aren’t “crazy”. They are human. They need understanding, and they need to know that “this too shall pass” when low times are following them through days at a time for seemingly no apparent reason. Words like “Get over it!” and “What is wrong with you?!” Won’t make anything better for them, or for you. The best thing you could do to help that person is to learn as much about it as you can possibly stand. Take care of your own needs and support them by being patient and helping them get the help they need.

I leave you with one final thing. A TEDtalks video by Laura Bain and how she lives daily being Bipolar. Check it out.

Thank you again for stopping by, reading, and sharing my blog with others. In doing so you help me reach and help more people and that is what I strive to do. Thank you!


IMS Institute for Healthcare Informatics, The Use of Medicines in the United States: Review of 2010

Mental Health Bloggers Widen Their Support Systems on WordPress.com

Originally posted on WordPress.com News:

When we start a blog instead of simply keeping a private diary, it’s because we want to connect with others. When you start to blog, you join a community.

It comes as no surprise that many bloggers are drawn to online communities as a place to work through challenges — to heal and process, find others with similar experiences, and seek (or offer) support. There are lots of supportive communities around WordPress.com: women dealing with breast cancer, people managing diabetes, parents of children with unique needs, and many, many more. Throughout January, we’ll be zooming in on how bloggers use WordPress.com to support their health and wellness.

Today, on the heels of the Blog for Mental Health 2014 kick-off, we’re focusing on mental health. Read on for a look at the many ways WordPress.com bloggers use their sites to improve their own lives, and the lives of others who have…

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Crystal Meth – The shocking truth, the reality, the people


It gives you a dopamine (happy, euphoric sensation) rush like nothing else can. It will makes you feel confident, strong, powerful, carefree, and not hungry for 6-12 hrs with just a very small amount. It’s fairly inexpensive per use, it’s readily available. The downside, it’s illegal, it’s highly addictive, the dopamine rush takes more and more each time you use it till eventually it doesn’t matter, that dopamine rush can not be achieved because the dopamine receptors of the brain get shut down. It causes the heart to beat rapidly with a surge of energy and also causes paranoia and hallucinations. Allow me to introduce you to what I have learned about Meth (Methamphetamine). 

I asked my 17 year daughter what she knew about Meth and she told me, ” it is a chemically made drug, it’s illegal, it’s addictive, and it’s more than a physical addiction, it is mentally addictive because of the high you get from it.” I think she hit it pretty right on! My kids and I have a very open line of communication and they feel comfortable about talking to me about things I never felt comfortable talking to my parents about. For me to walk up to her and ask her that question out of the blue.. she thought nothing about it but instead offered to find out more about it for me if I wanted her to. Check off for a good job on being a Mom!

You may have seen before and after photos with faces and underneath the words “Faces of Meth“. What you may not know is that “Faces of Meth” was more than just real people, with real lives, and real problems and their real photo’s, but it was an actual documentary done by Multnomah County Sheriff’s office in Oregon, one of the first states hit hard with the Meth epidemic.

What Deputy King set out to do was create a realistic presentation about methamphetamine. He didn’t want to create something that made people curious about a drug nor that was a scared straight program. The idea was simple, be honest with kids, let them hear directly from the inmates, and show them what people who work on the front lines – whether it be a Corrections Deputy in the Jail, a Police Officer on the streets or a Public Health Nurse in a clinic see methamphetamine doing to people and to our communities.



The United States has a huge problem with Meth and despite the efforts to control the manufacturing of the drug, the problem with Meth addicts and usage is increasing. If it isn’t being made in a meth lab in a home, trailer, garage, or other facility, it is being brought to the United States from Mexico.

Timberline Knolls Residential Treatment Center is a leading rehab and recovery center for women (ages 12 and up) who suffer with methamphetamine abuse, according to their site, Methamphetamine addiction is a serious medical disease that is extremely difficult to overcome. I read somewhere that 92% of Meth addicts that make it to rehab will relapse once they are released. 92 PERCENT!! Click on their highlighted name above to read some of the Meth addiction symptoms and side effects.

A video documentary created by National Geographic is an excellent video explaining all aspects of the problem we are all very close to being in the middle of:


If you are interested in learning more about the serious problems we are having with Meth in the USA, there is also a documentary on Netflix right now under “The worlds Dangerous Drug.”

There is another documentary, The City Addicted to Meth (Fresno) brings some real life scenarios to face. Watching portions of this video actually made my stomach sick.

But people who use meth come from all walks of life. An article in Business Insider tells a story of a teacher who put on 75lbs after a divorce. She began using Meth to lose weight as suggested by her sister.

And Meth labs really do blow up injuring and killing people who are cooking or buying the meth as witnessed in this graphic video.

So what can you do if you or someone you know wants or needs help with a Meth addiction? The sooner they get help the better off they’ll be. Since the serious effects of a drug like Meth require the expertise of a professional counselor, you can help yourself or your friend by finding resources near you with the Treatment Locator created by SAMHSA, the Substance Abuse & Mental Health Services Administration.


The frizzle, Frazzle, burnt out rant of a mother, coach, trainer, competitor, and wife.. who HAS HAD IT!

I’ll start of by stating my apology to anyone who may be offended by anything I post in today’s blog. As you know, this blog is about Health, Fitness, and Wellness. Even though I have posted mostly about regular stuff that the majority of the population understands and relates to, there are some things that a small portion of the population are going through and because it is such a SMALL portion of the population, they feel alone, isolated, unable to be understood…. yes, ALONE.

You see, a person who is tremendously stressed, who takes on the problems and the troubles of all those people they feel they NEED to be responsible for (family, friends, those whom they have chosen to help and support), someone who has been diagnosed with both MS and Hashimoto’s, and is one who is believed to be an Empath, life can be very challenging. Mentally and physically. If you are one of these “small population” people.. guess what, I understand. I am one of these “small population” people too.



Over the past few months I have done all i could not to break down and lose it. I’ve cried, I’ve been stressed, I’ve been holding the world on my shoulders and today, the world slipped. I closed my eyes and I just wanted everything and everyone to go away. I wanted my brain to stop. Just stop. Stop thinking. I wanted my aching body to stop aching and for the  muscles to relax. 

Normally, I can meditate. Release and quiet my mind, but these past few months, it hasn’t been working. I try and things, and feelings come pushing through the closed door. Almost in a way to prove to me that I can’t close it out and now.. my brain and my body are fried.

I need to break away for a bit and take the time I need to “rewire” my brain. Since I have been trying and working so hard towards my goals,and I HAVE been at an unbelievable pace with sometimes having near nothing to show for it! I am letting go of the majority of the goals for right now. With the exception of the financial goals because those just can’t be set down on the nightstand till I’m ready to pick them up again. Letting go of goals. Wow. For me, this is completely unheard of but if I keep going at the pace I have been trying to go, I just don’t know. Actually, it’s simple. I can’t. I have been giving myself in so many directions and incredible amount of my time and energy and with me being the person I am.. I’ve reached the STOP SIGN. I’m done… for now.

I am BURNT OUT! I went to the gym today thinking what would help would be a hard workout. Started off with a Barbell Flat Bench Press. 165lbs I pressed. Heavy, but this is what I needed… right? It was difficult but it was more difficult because my brain kept going to places like “what if my hand slipped off the bar? What if I was unbalanced and lost my center on the bench and fell to the side?” These are things you can’t be thinking when you are doing heavy weights. My husband tells me, “good job!”. Normally I’d be happy with my 3-4 sets of 8-10 reps with this weight. Today, I was pissed. I wasn’t FEELING it. My workout was failing me!! The final chest exercise we did was the peck deck…130lbs..not bad I guess. 4 sets…I’m disgusted with myself and this workout. Again, this is a workout that normally I should feel good about and leave the gym happy and with energy. But not today. Not for me.Good God (roll eyes) I have to take time out for Yoga and Pilates.

“Instead of helping you burn off steam, your usual 45-minute jog makes you feel even worse.” Yep, that’s me. 

“If you’re really frazzled when you start to exercise, your body reacts differently than if you aren’t in such a state, explains Sarah L. Berga, MD, professor of obstetrics and gynecology at Wake Forest School of Medicine in Winston-Salem, North Carolina. Berga and her colleagues have observed that moderately-intense exercise can cause cortisol levels to spike even higher in women who are already so stressed that they’ve been missing their periods. At the same time, the “hyperstressed” women’s glucose levels dropped, which meant there was less available energy to fuel their exertion. Berga suggests taking a break from hard workouts and signing up for a package of Pilates classes instead.”

I’m so burnt, my HAIR hurts!



Your scalp feels weirdly sensitive when you shampoo your hair.

“Stress often leads to the release of neuropeptides and other natural chemicals in the skin, and that causes inflammation, explains Richard Fried, MD, PhD, a clinical psychologist and dermatologist with a private practice in Yardley, Pennsylvania. In some people, that inflammation erupts in angry pimples or a flare-up of rosacea. In others, the neuropeptides, which are responding to protect the skin from invaders, can cause blood vessels to constrict, making skin all over the face and head feel tight, tingly and overly sensitive. You’ve also probably been tensing your facial muscles for weeks (unconsciously bracing for a confrontation), so they’re tired and slightly sore. Fried says the feeling should subside when you start to feel more relaxed.”


Now add this to the symptoms auto immune issuers suffer when they are stressed out and… WHALLA! You have me! A freakin’ mess of a basket case!

When I was single and had little to no responsibilities I would disappear when I felt like this. I could go away, far away. “ROAD TRIP” would be calling my name, and I would jump. Those who knew me knew eventually I would show up again. Sometimes it would be a month or two down the line, but I’d show and and ease their worried minds. Now that I have a family and responsibilities, obviously, I can’t do that and so sometimes I feel trapped, unable to escape, and with no where to run to.

“I get grumpy and don’t filter my thoughts before they come out of my mouth.” – Laurie Dumar, via Facebook

As HuffPost Healthy Living reports, “this urge to lash out originates in the amygdala, the region of the brain that processes stress. “When constantly, severely stressed, the amygdala can become overly sensitive and hyper-vigilant, making even relatively harmless events (such as a whiny child or a snoring spouse) seem like a threat,” writes Laura Schocker. “That explains those instinctively snappy over-reactions we can all have when feeling strung out.”



I have been pushing myself too hard for too long. Giving until I honestly feel I have nothing left to give, and I am broken, out of order…for now.

Taking care of yourself and your mental and emotional wellness is vital for your over all health. Recognize when you need to take a break, and take it. I am.

Thank you for taking the time to read the rambling of someone who …well… you get it by now.